So often my view of God is way too small. Taking a death grip on a certain amount of hope and faith that I'm not going to let go of no matter what. But when God has more for my life, my hands are closed so tight around what He's already given me that I can't receive what He wants me to have.
I've thought about what it would be like to hold my life a little more open. Though it really is a wonder that when I find myself afraid or angry, that my hands close automatically.
This last week I've found that opening doors inside my heart is a rather uncomfortable process, but the more light that comes in the more love, hope and joy grow.
I have found over and over that God's love is very persistent, if I don't catch on to something He just keeps at it until I pay attention. If I am intentionally ignoring something, oddly things in that area grow more and more uncomfortable until I am able to see that He really is just trying to love me closer to Him. Sometimes this means having to let go of a lesser love to pursue a greater Love. There are days that I don't know what that even looks like, but if I remain open the day's path appears one step at a time.
I like to know what the plan is and where the path leads, but that isn't exactly what God has for me today. Faith keeps me taking the next step. For a long time I've been telling myself that God says it's going to be ok in the end... but the reality is- it's OK right now. God is sovereign in this moment and it really is ok, even if it doesn't feel good.
Trying to live with open hands, open eyes, and am open heart today. Change is inevitable whether I resist or remain open. I'm tired of fighting. And I'm glad that God can tell me He will fight for me, I just need to be still. Today I'm open to that. :)
I've thought about what it would be like to hold my life a little more open. Though it really is a wonder that when I find myself afraid or angry, that my hands close automatically.
This last week I've found that opening doors inside my heart is a rather uncomfortable process, but the more light that comes in the more love, hope and joy grow.
I have found over and over that God's love is very persistent, if I don't catch on to something He just keeps at it until I pay attention. If I am intentionally ignoring something, oddly things in that area grow more and more uncomfortable until I am able to see that He really is just trying to love me closer to Him. Sometimes this means having to let go of a lesser love to pursue a greater Love. There are days that I don't know what that even looks like, but if I remain open the day's path appears one step at a time.
I like to know what the plan is and where the path leads, but that isn't exactly what God has for me today. Faith keeps me taking the next step. For a long time I've been telling myself that God says it's going to be ok in the end... but the reality is- it's OK right now. God is sovereign in this moment and it really is ok, even if it doesn't feel good.
Trying to live with open hands, open eyes, and am open heart today. Change is inevitable whether I resist or remain open. I'm tired of fighting. And I'm glad that God can tell me He will fight for me, I just need to be still. Today I'm open to that. :)